Thanks to knowing beautiful people such as Eileen, I spent this afternoon with a wonderful bunch of people that re-taught me what having good fun was all about.
The task was simple, my buddy-in-bins was awesome, the team was friendly, the clients were such a good sport, the photographer was a sweet to reassure me that my latest consideration to purchase my next big upgrade was well worth every single dime – but what made my heart smile at the end of it all were also the simple little things I re-discovered from the start of my participation till the end: sincerity, having a hearty laugh, having fun, letting go, letting loose, enjoyment.
In the past 2 weeks of fun and sudden actualization during the midst of all the drama, I’ve come to realized that although I left my fulltime job since mid July, I hadn’t actually let go of the life that used to make me miserable. There I was, still responding to job offers when I was obviously not ready for any, till a few factors had to be present to stop me from making my next move. Despite a move to working part-time, I was still worrying, frowning, fretting & doing work on my days off instead of enjoying myself during my 4-days weekend.
And the irony of it all: everyone that knew me saw that happening to me, except me. Or perhaps I just didn’t want to acknowledge it. Just yet.
Now, after many rounds of alcohol & letting loose in the past 2 weeks, being part of a fun events crew today, carrying a 1/2 day old newborn in my arms for the 1st time on Saturday, injecting bits of kooky into the social events these days – I think I’m slowly getting to get to where I’ve been intending to be. Surely…
A good place where I can just shake my head, shout it all out, let go, let loose, do the things I enjoy & love, have lots of me-time and friendship-time, and be back to carefree.
Even if for a little while.