Sometimes I feel guilty that I may be taking this pregnancy a tad bit for granted. Especially when we’ve been trying, praying, desiring like since forever to get to where we are today.
Case in point: I used to eat wholemeal/fibre cereal for breakfast everyday when we were trying and now that little Chungkin has been created, all I asked for, think about and end up buying is mee siam, economic bee hoon with egg and lots of chilli, roti prata with lots of curry. Well, at least I know baby is loving spice as much as mama does.
Another case in point: I used to sleep way earlier after reading how sleeping at the ideal 10pm – 11pm boost fertility by about 45% but these days…I’m up till midnight mainly because my little snack comes in at about 11.45pm, in the form of a warm cuppa mamil gold milk and on some days when I’m lucky – prata or maggi mee goreng from our fav store. And of course catching on tv series such as happy endings, scrubs, pam am, eureka etc. I heart laughter or good music in any show. Can’t wait for Mad Men to be back next year though! I digress.
Funny how I used to talk to little Chungkin a lot more during my 1st tri, and now these days, I only remember to communicate & connect with the little one during my daily constipation struggles which usually span about 1 – 2 hours (it usually starts with a cramp, then it gets worse, and then I cringe and then to the bowl for about 10 to 15 min). Most of the time telling the chungkin how mama is struggling with her bowels and wished she was in the comfort of the home toilet and how sorry I am for not asking why he/she wanted for lunch.
And these are the moments when I feel like a bad mama already before my physical role has even begun.
But I’ve also learnt (through wonderful SILs, friends & relatives) not to take it too hard on myself. As the saying goes…a happy mommy makes a happy bubba!
So little chungkin, I hope whenever mama is having fun boogie-ing around with her food, entertainment and friends, you’re enjoying yourself too. Because know that when you’re out of this belly, we are going to have lots more fun, together.