2011 was mostly amazing.
It started off with a blast of a holiday in Japan where the Bo & I celebrated NYE 2010 and ushered 2011 in Tokyo, immersing ourselves with local activities & culture; followed by our first ride on the Shinkansen (bullet train in Japan) to visit my side of family in Gifu for a lovely home cooked meal on the 1st day of 2011. And the next 3 weeks of 2011 spent in Osaka, Kyoto, Hokkaido where we got to experienced a lot of wonderful things together such as falling on snow, skiing, building snowman, skinny dipping in hot springs (which really did burnt), savouring local delicacies such as sea urchin and other raw, fresh seafood which I usually won’t attempt to eat.
It was a year of many fabulous firsts for myself – deciding to take a real break away from work to focus on my personal growth, faith & family planning since starting work some 9 years ago. Re-taking up yoga after a 3-years hiatus & finally deciding to get wee bit serious on photography via personal lessons from a mentor and committing some finances to get some serious camera accessories. Cooking consecutive meals for the Bo which he really enjoyed while mil was away on holidays. And of course, us finally being pregnant with our #1 chungkin which has resulted in making joint decisions for b.chungkin, being blessed with new friendships and strengthening existing relationships. Amazing what big changes a baby’s pending arrival can do.
It was a year of positivity – mustering that courage to see a life coach to get my life/thoughts organized & energy back, daring to believe that July-2011 would be that special month when b.chungkin would happen due to a good feeling which I couldn’t shake off since June-11, acceptance of my choice of unemployment which inadvertently turned a lot of situations for the better, and having that strength to pass on good vibes to pals who really needed a dose of it.
It was a year of personal growth – where I was more willing to let go of hurt, sadness, disgruntlement and be more accepting of changes regardless how big or small. One I could managed anxieties better and learn more about myself as an individual.
It was a year of strengthening relationships – especially with my 3 musketeers (mom, bo & jj); and I’m thankful for your ever ready listening ears, assurances and generosity in anything within your means including your love. Thank you for being such great givers and for being in my life.
The not so amazing bits of 2011? – days when I woke up or slept in tears. Days the bo & I fought verbally which left us both feeling very hurt. Days when I questioned all the personal decisions I made. Days when I didn’t feel like I had any support or anyone I could really pour out to. Days when I felt utterly useless as a person, wife, friend & daughter and all I could do was wallow. Though I’m absolutely thankful (to the Lord) that they did not outweigh the good that happened.
And as I type this entry with the little one throwing me some power punches in the belly as a reminder of the most significant thing that happened in 2011, I know it was an
mostly awesome year.