And so it seems that the pregnant friends (due Feb & Mar) whom I’ve been using as ‘benchmarks’ against my impending delivery (in approx. 2 weeks, being the earliest possible) have all popped, except for one (I’ve been constantly checking her blog for birth announcement updates) whom I know the moment she does, it’s the final moments of countdown to motherhood for me.
I was having coffee with a friend earlier today when she casually joked that my gynae might send me to the labour ward after giving me the check down there (refer to this post for reference) this Thurs, as like what happened to another friend of hers recently. I laughed (thinking: no way, I still have a bunch of things to do before little one arrives i.e.: washing of bedding sheet & going to taka baby fair!), but deep down I knew that it could be a possibility. After all, that was exactly what happened to one of the above-mentioned pregnant friends about a week back, except that she was in week 37 then (and I’m only in my 35th).
Point being that in possibly less than a month’s time, we are going from couple hood to family. This also means that I will go from pregnant -> non-pregnant, a feeling I know I am most likely to miss especially since this journey has been every bit enjoyable and wonderful from the start, albeit worrying moments in between (I’m only human & a first-time mom).
I will miss the abrupt kicks, somersaults, punches and waves little chungkin has been creating in the past months. And definitely cradling & looking at the bump. I will miss having the green-light to indulge on my cravings and being able to get away from signing on hair/beauty packages as easily as I can now. I will miss my mobility to transport the 2 of us so easily & conveniently vs. having to pack the entire house into a diaper bag.
But for every miss, I know that I will gain a joy that will fill our hearts so much that it might just explode.
Am I ready for this? Probably not! But am I going to persevere especially when it comes to breastfeeding, care taking & be as positive as I can be? Yeahhhh!!!