I’m so sorry for the horrible lack of updates. Amidst adapting to more changes, falling ill (thank goodness for oils which have kept the virus from spreading), baking adventures, engaging my getting-too-curious-that-it’s-sometimes-annoying son and fitting in some much needed retail therapy, I’ve also been dealing with some personal issues – with the likes of learning how to let go. An important (one for life) but not as easy to swallow pill which my helper recently served me with. You can say I belong to the “too nice that sometimes you get taken for a ride and for granted” employer category.
And in times like these I allow myself to mope, indulge in some alcohol and chocolates, movie marathon with a good friend or two (even if they fall asleep in the beginning of the 2nd consecutive awesome movie…but wake up in time to enjoy the rest of it, just saying ;p), buy myself one nice item….or maybe two and then bounce back up because you have to right? Be upset all you want but after that, move on. Because life’s just moves on.
I then try to focus on whatever positive I can because those are the ones that’s totally worth your emotions and time, and of course it also helps to have a very cool (in the chill kind of way) husband and a bestie that will dish you many of those statements that hit you with a thud of realization that sometimes, letting go is indeed the best way to go. It’s hard but once it’s done, I guarantee your heart feels a thousand times lighter and you may even have a skip in your steps.
My son too, has been a great source of distraction. He has this super sensitive radar that knows when I’m not my usual chirpy mode and that is usually followed by even more comic relief until he sees me smile or laughs and then he plants a big fat slobbery on my cheeks, or sometimes on my lips when I least expect it.
His new teachers are obviously smitten with him (hearing how they reenact and tell other adults so happily about the funny little stuff he just did to them) as with the departmental store aunties who would actually leave their “posts” and come near him just so they have a better view. Sometimes he starts off with a forced laughter kinda act, which draws some attention and then he goes in “for the kill” with words and gestures that makes many of them go “aiyoooo”. At times, he gets a lolly which he cheekily stuffs into his pockets. Other times, he’s just in for the attention which I refuse to give because I just want to have a cuppa in peace. But of course.
His latest act today was insane! He kicked the counter table with both legs so hard that the pram tipped backwards to the astonishment of the crowd around us. I heard lots of gasps but had no idea that it was my son (thankfully safely strapped and properly cushioned by the safety seat) until I turned back. My heart dropped for a moment as with my jaws but stayed calm I did, as I picked him up and he let out a loud laugh, followed by a clap and started waving hello to everyone. He finally got what he wanted for the last 20 minutes – to be carried out of the pram but his requests were intentionally ignored because I didn’t want to manage carrying a 11kg toddler and pushing a pram while walking in midst of a crowd – and I got politely embarrassed (so it didn’t seem because I didn’t want him to know that he “won” so he wouldn’t attempt it again) for appearing like I couldn’t manage my son. Ah hah! you who judged and stared obviously have no idea what active toddlers are like.
So anyway that pretty much sums up my week so far. It’s been a dismal start, but I’m glad that it’s ending on a better note.
Here’s giving thanks for all the little blessings, especially the big one from my very kind boss. 🙂
It feels good to be productive and to be contributing more than initially expected!