Hello and happy 2020! I don’t know who else is still dropping by this site but epiphany struck this morning despite 4 hours of sleep (I blame it mostly on Netflix’s Crash Landing On You), and I thought…why not.
It’s been a year and 4 months since I last posted anything on this space, and ridiculously, I’ve been making quarterly payments to continue hosting this site. If only my determination & discipline to shed the pounds, get fit, toned & healthy lasted this long. I digress. I suppose the key reason why I continue keeping this blog’s existence is to fulfil that morbid thought which surfaces from time to time since becoming a parent – that if I ever fall asleep in Christ and await His return ever so suddenly (aka. to leave the world without having enough time to FB and WhatsApp people to tell them how much I really treasured their friendship, kindness and love and to ask them to help me check in on my 2 brilliant kids…from time to time) – then at least the kids sorta have this online diary of their mom’s, to be reminded of just how much we love and treasure them since the day they were created.
Also, I reckon this blog will provide more details on ’em wonderful memories and be a closer representation of hearing “from the horse’s mouth” than their papa’s version (kids, by now if you’re old enough to be surfing the internet with little supervision, you’d also know that your papa is one known not to elaborate much on things outside work :p). And who knows, perhaps it’ll serve as a really good last-minute online reference for a euology?
Back in 2018, I made a conscious effort to spend lesser time aimlessly scrolling through newsfeeds on FB & IG (which mostly made me feel less adequate with my seemingly sucky life ) and to post less on my feed; just to see if this truly resulted in more time spent productively. It didn’t help that I was often triggered by the kids and husband lamenting in jest that I cared more about getting photos of the day taken than anything else. It may have been in jest, but I got affected and my self-conscious behaviour wanted to prove them wrong through walking the talk. You should have seen their confused faces the first few times when they asked where I wanted them to stand/pose the moment we got to a place, only to hear me say “I’m not taking any photos. Even if I do end up taking, I’m not posting anything on my gram this week and haven’t posted anything last week too”. It was gold. But in all seriousness, the intention was to disconnect (online) to connect (offline) and I’m glad it sparked lots of joy.
That said, looking back, I do wish I posted a wee bit more especially of the milestone moments. And I blame this feeling of FOMO on Facebook’s constant showcase of photos from memory lane from years ago. Shame that I won’t have many photos of 2018 and 2019 to reminisce on my newsfeed in few year’s time, but never too late to start plugging in 2020’s!
I know we’re now in 2020, and 2018 was 2 years’ ago. But because 2018 was so special in its own way – creating a historical high of “firsts”, I thought it deserves a special mention.
2018 was truly the year of transformation for me
Everything that I’ve been working on, towards and for the better of in the past 4 years practically culminated in this very year.
It was the year where the intention I set for myself at the start of the year: “to do something different every day” came to fruition, and amplified. Perhaps it was the law of attraction or like-mindedness magnetizing like-mindedness, my then-MD (also the ex-colleague who encouraged me to get back to work after baby #2 happened) started challenging the company to “do things differently” at her opening address and takeaway message at every town hall that year. She had noticed the good difference in me, and just before the 3rd townhall happened, she asked if I was willing to share with everyone how I’ve done things differently (she had seen me problem solve by thinking outside the box) and how it has impacted me.
My first reaction wasn’t an enthusiastic “YES!” but I decided that I couldn’t let slip a good opportunity to truly do something different. Was I nervous addressing the biggest crowd (3 companies’ worth of staff) ever? No shit! Was I conscious about how more senior colleagues may view my amateurish style of sharing? Absolutely!
There I was, standing up there, being the 1st speaker for that particular townhall session. My heart was beating too quickly, my face was flushed, and in my mind, I was going “damn it why didn’t you rehearse! What are you doing to say?” when she calls you up to the front?
It was also there and then I took a moment to connect with God, took a deep breath and decided to just start sharing 3 guiding principals which has helped me with my growth mindset candidly. There was no better time to showcase what I was about to share than that opportunity itself. And so I did. I focused on delivering the content, not how the audience would/might respond. And if I started thinking about the audience, I would then control myself. And finally, I hoped for the best, prepared for the worst.
While I did not expect to change lives in an instant, I had just one goal for myself. That if I could make at least one person in the room aware of these very useful guidelines and inspire them to change their perspective and mindset, then my goal would have been achieved. By the end of the day, I received 4 positive feedback/responses across all working levels (which meant the world to me). This was truly a magical moment for me in 2018 and a really great learning opportunity.
A few days after that momentous townhall moment, I received my very first media “rockstar” award and also won the first prize in a lucky draw which followed right after the award ceremony. It was a very humbling and heartfelt moment to experience, amidst embarking on one of the most difficult personal journeys of learning how to embrace myself through the process of owning my story and practising authenticity. Definitely another magical moment for me in 2018 and a great reminder to keep having courage.
Who would have thought the simple task of setting and following through the one intention I set for myself would continue to lead me to more magical moments in 2018? Not me for sure. I practically luck out when I chanced upon news that Xandria Ooi was going to be in Singapore for one morning only and was able to secure one of the last few seats.
It was surreal meeting this lady in person and having time and space aligned in a manner that just as I was going to post an Instagram story of her, that she spoke to me and we connected. I shared the vast improvements her videos and techniques made to my relationships and life, and little did I expect that listening to all that I had to say made her feel jubilant, excited, and inspired. Lo & behold, just before she was about to address her crowd, she asked if I could share with everyone exactly what was shared with her. I laughed it off, thinking that it probably wouldn’t actualize, as I took my seat in the front.
Towards the end of her session, Xandria started to talk about meeting a particular individual whom she conversed with earlier and that she had ask if this individual would be okay coming up to share her experience for the benefit of everyone. It took me about a few seconds to realize that she was actually setting the stage for me to come up and speak. Oh those nerves, it was definitely overwhelming speaking to a crowd of strangers, yet it was another magical moment for me in 2018.
June 2018 marked our 10th year wedding anniversary
and this celebration was made super special & epic with our first family vacay of the year to the UK, and a surprise celebration by Singapore Airlines during our 13.5-hour flight there.
It was the perfect way to celebrate 10 years of marriage in 3 lovely cities, along with our 2 little Chungkins where they got to finally meet family members from both sides for the first time.
And then came P1 registration in August 2018…
We’re incredibly thankful that Liam got into the primary school of choice, which was mostly based on practical factors. Liam is in Primary 2 now, and it is such a joy hearing about his day, how much he enjoys himself and the highlights.
Lots of playtime and bonding with the Chungkins also happened in 2018
As well as pulled off Zenith’s biggest party to date (their 30th anniversary) with the committee where we surprised everyone with customized Grab promo codes:
Just when I thought life might slow down a little and things resume normalcy, one thing led to another and I found myself making more firsts by being the missing piece with a team of colleagues to compete against other companies in my first ever Bloomberg Square Mile Relay.
And as if I needed to spice up 2018 even more, I co-organized our team’s first retreat/fun day out to JB. It turned out to be one helluva adventure and experience with all that happened after cafe hopping and getting our hair done for 1/3 of the price here in SG. But it was the sort of outing that will be remembered for a long time.
More firsts led to more firsts – for Trick or Treat at the end of Oct 2018, I decided to spontaneously dress up as
Harley Quinn Heartland Queen:
2018 was also the year I embraced wearing specs outside of home more, in an attempt to give myself more self-care (I used to not care and continue wearing lens despite stinging/inflammation/dryness). The realization of not taking care of my eyes resulting in more eye problems which may affect my eyesight as I get older scared me – I want to be able to see my family especially the kids for as long as possible.
And then we received the best news ever for the year. Our new house keys were ready for collection. We finally had a home to call our own!
Truly, 2018 was nothing short of spectacular. My single intention set for the year forced me out of my comfort zones and pushed me to create many “firsts” experiences. And for that, I am utterly grateful for the growth, strength and courage gained.