Some days I wonder why I choose to wear the 4-5 hats that I’m juggling simulatenously now instead of being the carefree stay-home mum I used to be once upon a time
I wonder if I made the right choice, trading my lady of leisure hours for a steep learning curve and exhausting myself with new knowledge…
I wonder if my little boy holds it against me, slowly extending his pre-school hours on some days even though what greets me during pick-up is a nice big smile and a hug followed by 3 solid hours of us time, is this self-consolation?
I wonder if stepping out of my comfort zone, getting scared and feeling uncertain are things I want to experience all over again in my 30s.
I wonder if I should doubt my sanity over and over again, even though it feels so right
I wonder if I’m actually headed on the right track with all the insane decisions made
And then I stop and take a deep breath, and I pray..and my heart feels at ease. And I wonder why I waited so long…